Suppressing weakness concerns and fear,
Why can’t you cope with thoughts, my dear
Do you believe your eyes or actions?
You got no answers, nor directions
Sorry, I robbed you off your passion.
I’ll build new borders walls like sphere
To trap your mind forever here.
I’ll come and visit now and then
To check if you’re lost again.
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Orbing in air, he’s somewhere…
Not beside you, not more than ever
Losing your Angels hurts like spare
Will he return? One day… Will ever?
And put his wing around you,
wiping hot tears off your face…
He’s taking pain, again and always
All of her suffering upon himself
And making up that smiling mask…
Forgive the girl… She’s crying near… Too
Take time you need, I’ll disappear
Until your wounds are fully healed…
@lexie_alie
They tell you have lost ur mind
Keep asking questions that u hate
Complaining about being anxious, nervous
Not knowing what ur going through
Wishing to tell the truth sometimes
But only few restrain from judgement.
Much easier – ignoring, keeping silence
Why care about smb’s mood swings, emotions?
About being stuck and nervous
Suffering from the mind issues,
Being hollow…
But ppl will not understand, won’t ever,
Just put the smiling mask on ‘pretty’ face,
Hiding and masking undersurface…
I’m tired… I’m falling deeper
The worry, the anxiety is beating.
My heart may handle, it may stop
Don’t rip it up, it’s tough enough
Living derealized, in pain and comfort
Faint through nightmares, stopping thoughts
Creating drama out of ‘purple’
Her favorite color, glooming hues
Is all she’s seen tonight while dreaming
Seeing his figure’s shadow
at the beginning of New Life
Asking herself if she deserved it…
Sometimes I feel
Something within me
Bleeding inside
Wishing to die
The hollowness, the thirst, the hunger
That’s made me shiver to the point of faint
Cutting my skin, scratches remaining… Deeper and deeper, take that dagger
Stop me from breathing
Do not regret, enjoy, just killing…
Don’t hesitate, let go off hand
The one that’s trembling, almost dumb
Accept the coldness, starve till blood,
Will take you over, getting stronger
Damaging, ruining soul, decaying
Your miserable horror life
It’s an illusion… Opened door
Towards the consciousness, mind power,
Imagine things, imagined life…
Shutting the eyes, locking nightmares
The world is tough yet isn’t ruined
Not yet, not utterly at least…
For now, stay, I’ll die for you!
You’re better off without me…
Keep smiling. Don’t you dare worrying,
I’ll leave in hidden tears, never returning…
The closest friends… Will never happen.
Again… Maybe it’s gone forever
She’s started life, the one of Angel
With clarity and new directions
It’s time to let the present rule
And leave the darkness of the past to fade…
Afraid to make mistakes, to stumble
She’s standing on the edge of Dagger
Trying to keep balance between worlds
The one Inhabited by ghastly monsters
And on the other end – The Lost.
Feet are in blood, while she’s still walking…
Towards the future, fixing lights
Along this murky, gloomy boulevard.
To build that steady, structured city
Get rid of dust and dirt on streets
And take a walk, with head up high
Feel that at least for once it’s Right.
A bit of pride, knowing she’s fixed it
With smile and peace in heart
Ready to go through all the pain,
To finally move on,
Taking another step along the endless… Dagger, which represents our lives,
Our fight and struggles,
The game, defining who’ll remain,
And who will fall hard in the void,
Who’s failed, having lost the Balance…
The perfect moment, being happy The feelings that has lit your life
And added colors on the canvas,
Don’t ever let this second go…
And let it freeze, the time at standstill
Two figures somewhere together, disappearing…
In crowds, shadows, under the sunlight
Those smiling eyes in one another
To be sincere, become special
To keep the loyalty, compassion
Support each other, fill with courage
Go up against all envy glances
The only things defined as heaven
Save those most precious things forever…
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